Following the blog link up
from Erin and Alex!
Last Weigh In: January 23, 2013 – 175.5 pounds.
Today’s Weight: 179.5 pounds. Up 4 pounds FUCK RIGHT OFF (I just pooped a second poop right now at work, so this number should be down a pound, maybe even two. It was huge. I over share, you’re welcome!)
Last Weigh In: January 23, 2013 – 175.5 pounds.
Today’s Weight: 179.5 pounds. Up 4 pounds FUCK RIGHT OFF (I just pooped a second poop right now at work, so this number should be down a pound, maybe even two. It was huge. I over share, you’re welcome!)
Starting Weight: September 19th, 2011 - 205 pounds. Down overall 25.5 pounds.
This is balls. Seriously.
I am blaming hormones. I truly am.
Right now, my stomach feels like it is going to burst. I feel like an ass every time I blame
stopping the Birth Control pill (BCP), but I think it is my problem. I know it’s an excuse, but it’s truly a
chemical/hormonal element that I know has happened to my body.
I
stopped the BCP on January 6. This means
today is day 28 of my cycle so in theory I should be ragging it today. Now when I was in high school I was like
clock work, day 29. So I am thinking if
I don’t get my period today it’s possible it’s tomorrow. I feel something might be coming as my whole
abdomen feels bloated. I feel like my
skin is stretched and my insides may pop out.
I have had a massive headache since Sunday. Sunday morning I woke up with a true migraine
behind my right eye. The pain was so bad
I was nauseous. Sunday was the worst
day, Monday afternoon was also really bad.
Every time my head throbbed I felt my stomach rise. Not pleasant.
Yesterday I had the headache and today still, but not to the degree of
Sunday and Monday. Just slight waves of
nausea. I know headaches can come with
PMS. I know headaches can come with
stopping the BCP (But it’s been 24 days, I would have thought I would have had
headaches by now.) The nausea is because
of the intense pain, I am 99.99% certain.
With that being said …
I
don’t want to get myself too worked up, I will only mention it here, I haven’t
mentioned it to anyone in real life yet my slight suspicion, what if I am
already pregnant? I suppose in two days,
if I start my period, I will know for sure I am not. Crazy bloating, headaches, super tired,
nausea (that I am certain is from the pain, but this is me being neurotic going
“what if?”.)
My
husband and I had unprotected sex a week ago.
A week after I thought I was ovulating.
I said to him, chances are I won’t get pregnant as we are too far away
from when I ovulated, but, that is not always certain. He said to me, what would you do if we got
pregnant the first time? I would be
super surprised: the first time we try would be awesome. I had one of my favourite bloggers comment to
me that she got pregnant the first time, I was thinking that would be awesome
if it happened for me that way. (I even laid
down with my legs up afterwards for good measure. Even if I didn’t think I was ovulating, I
figured I would give it a whirl!) Especially
considering how both my sisters have struggled to get pregnant, I would love
that piece of mind that I don’t have anything wrong to worry about.
But
I am trying not to get my hopes up. I
think I am just PMSing … but it would be nice if I was actually pregnant. I am not going to lie though; I would have
loved to get more weight off me before hand.
However, I figure if I get pregnant right away I would just work extra
hard after the baby. I know, anyone with
a baby is laughing at me; I probably won’t have the time. I really hope I can do something at
least. See all these worries I have in
my head?!?!?!
Let’s
do the Week recap, shall we?:
Last
Wednesday I did my Shred It and I ate well up and until after dinnertime. After dinner, I went berserk and ate 2000
calories IN ADDITION to the 1700 calories I had all day. It was bad.
3700 in total.
Thursday
I did my Shred it. I ate well throughout
the day, I think I came in around 1800 calories consumed.
Friday
was a rest day. I came in at 2000
calories. Not great but that number is
the number I should never go ever as that is my “maintain” calorie number.
Saturday
I did well calorie wise. I came in
around 1900. I worked in the attic,
lugging boxes and I had a huge workout with hockey. No sitting on the bench for me this
week! I was far more happy then I was
the previous game.
Sunday
I had my horrific headache. I came in
around 2000 calories. It was supposed to
be a rest day but we worked in the attic some more: cleaning, lugging and
tugging boxes. We needed to tidy the
attic, so we could clean out the spare bedroom, as we want to start painting
for a nursery. Perhaps it’s a little
early in the plans but I don’t want to be painting while pregnant. When we moved into the house, we never
painted. The house is cream in every
single room. Then we had to knock a few
holes in the walls to get to plumbing, including the spare bedroom, so it
really should be re-painted at some point.
Monday
I did my “Shred It” and came in at 1500 calories. Slowly getting back on track.
Tuesday
I did my “Shred It” but was ravenous again so I ate about 2000 calories.
I
know 2000 calories isn’t great for losing weight. That is my “maintain” calorie count according
to all of the calculators. I figure if I
am burning 300 calories working out, then my net is 1700, which isn’t bad, it’s
still a reduction.
I
had one really bad day and a bunch of mediocre days calorie wise. But I figure the working out and only going
over my “maintain” calorie count once, shouldn’t have resulted in a four pound
gain. It’s frustrating. I am certain this is all hormonal
related.
PS
I did Jillian Michaels’ Shred It Workout Two for the first time today. HOLY SMOKES.
It is INTENSE. I am
exhausted. In fact my legs are still
shaking and I finished the workout almost two hours ago. (I drank a big ass protein shake, don’t
worry, I love my food too much to not refuel right away.)